There's hope for me!!

I realized today why I've been so conflicted about my career choice. And I now know what I was supposed to be. Bad news is that it is realistically too late for me to really achieve it. For years now my career dilemma has featured a science vs. music component. I've always said I have three (academic) loves, my three M's: math, medicine, & music. I've delved in the Math bit through my Computer Science experience and have come to learn that I love Math in its pure form more than I do in its applications (unless we're talking Physics). So I've been focusing on the remaining two, both of which I recall being interested in since at least age 4. It's taken me nearly a decade to get involved in pre-med stuff again. And always when I'm about to get really into it, Music starts pulling me back. This story has played itself so many times I can't remember anymore.

Anyway, so I realized that if things had been very different, if I had grown up in a different environment I would have been a concert musician (as in, Classical music). Maybe a concert oboist. The uplifting experience I had this weekned kind of put it all together for me. That is a career that I would have been passionate about forever.

That being said, the possibility of it working out for me asymptotically reaches zero. I should have begun on that instrument 20 years ago. And even if I were to drop everything and begin a regimen of 8 hour/day practice sessions I doubt I'd get into a major orchestra. I have taken this blow surprisingly well. I think that I can get good enough perhaps to join a community orchestra and I am pretty sure that it will satisfy my desires. Now to find my niche within the medical science community. One that will allow me time for my precious music.

Good news is that this guy thinks I can do it!!